Started working out again

So Friday I started working out again. I mean really working out. My legs are feeling it today. I am a bit soar.
My friend is giving me 6 weeks. If we do not see real results in 6 weeks she will no longer help me. Not because she is mean or anything , but because she is helping me on her 45 minute lunch break that she gets in her 12 hour day. I totally get this.
We can only meet once a week which sucks for me, because it means the rest of the time I have to work out on my own. That is the hardest part for me.
Here is hoping i can stick to my guns.

New Year's Resolution

I have only one simple resolution this year. Be happy.
I spent a good deal of 2015 being unhappy.
I was unhappy at my job. I was unhappy with my situation with my daughter. I was unhappy with my health. I was unhappy with how clean my house was. How my son did/ didn't do things. And oh so much more.
The thing is more often then not, I could have changed the thing that made me unhappy or upset. It was quite possible for me to be more healthy, remind my son of his chores, clean up something in the house that bothered me and so on and so on. Often though I would just wallow in it. I would make excuses why things couldn't change. Some pretty lame ones to such as,' Well I worked all day at a job I hate. I am to tired to do anything about this.' That is my most popular excuse.
Followed very closely by, ' Well if they truly care about me they will take care of it.' Very dangerous thought by the way since honestly most of the time they don't feel the same way about the situation as I do, and don't even realize how I felt about it.
So instead of playing the helpless poor victum, I will start actively doing things about it. If something is making me unhappy I will change it.
I have already taken the first step. I accepted a new job. This new job will alow me to be home in the afternoons so I can actually help my daughter with her struggles at school.
This one is a pretty big step. Most of the changes will probably be small and I know I will have set backs, but that's ok. As long as my general attitude changes I am good.
Here is to a better, happier 2016

Trying to stay positive

I had applied for a new job. Same field, just different company.  With this job I would have a bigger and better effect on the world, and I would make more money. A win, win. My interview went really well. Then I waited, and waited, and waited. Finally heard back from them. Due to financial issues the position could only be part time. Unfortunately because of my financial issues I can not take part time.
I am very bummed this didn't work out. But I am trying to keep positive.
Sometimes that can be hard to do.

It's been a while

It has been a while. 2015 was not a good year for me.
I took a job I thought would be good for me, and it turns out it really wasn't. It was by no means all bad either, but it wasn't what it should have been.
I lost three pets. One hermit crab, which I must admit had little effect on me. Sorry I just wasn't that attached. I also lost one of my cats and my dog. Those were tough. We found our cat in the cat carrier. Apperently she passed in her sleep. Our dog had been really sick and we took her to the vet. We had a really strong feeling we knew what the vet would say.
Also I have been trying to get an IEP set up for my youngest child. However since they can not really determine her learning disability it has been kind of difficult.
When I took on this new job, I could no longer see my personal trainer simply because our schedules no longer matched up.
I am a person who, when stressed or depressed,  eats ALOT.
So given the fact that I no longer had the motivation from my personal trainer, and I was eating really crazy, especially the last few months, I have not done well with weight loss.
I am trying to get back on track. Of course trying this during the holidays may have been a silly idea. Lol
Wish me luck.

No clue

I have no clue what my weight is doing. I know even though I had been doing everything right for two weeks I had been gaining weight. So I got discouraged and stayed away from the scale for a while. Then life got crazy and I simply forgot to weigh myself.
I have been sort of keeping up with my exercise, but not so much with eating right. I am definitely a stress eater.
So even though the stress level has not gone down (actually got worse just yesterday) I have decided to really try and get back to it.
I really need to learn not to let life's stresses get me down.

Pleasant surprise

So it is that time of the month. I am feeling bloated and constantly craving something sweet. Unfortunately I have made the discovery that at this time of the month I have no self control.
Yesterday someone brought in doughnuts, someone else brought in a cake, and someone else brought in cup cakes. The healthy thing would have been to say no to all of these things, or maybe pick one. However I wound up eating all of them. (one doughnut, one slice of cake and a mini cup cake spread out throughout the work day) 

Yeah really need to work on self control.

 So I wasnt really sure what to expect today when I weighed myself. I got a very pleasant surprise though. I weighed 235.4 pounds. That is a 1.2 pound loss. I will take it :)

If I can just work on my cravings now. I need to find some better alternatives.

Oh no weigh in day

Ok so yesterday was my weigh in day.
I was not really looking forward to it. Mainly because I felt like I hadn't lost any weight. In fact I had been feeling quite bloated. My guess was that there would be no progress at all, or maybe just a tiny bit.
For the most part I have been doing good. Very few indulgences or excessive eating. Truth be told I could have been a bit better with my exercising.  Regardless of what I had done right and wrong it was time to step on the scale. After all we need accountability.
So I stepped on the scale hoping the worse I would see was the same weight, praying I would see at least a little loss. When I looked I couldn't believe my eyes.
I weighed 236.6. That means I lost 2.2 pounds this week. Yay me :)